Sick cycle

It was perfect
I wished the time stood still
When you kissed me
and I kissed you back with everything my heart could feel
It was overwhelming
I thought I would burst into tears
But there you leave again
And I woke up to realize it was just another dream
I cried
I cried in realization that we will always just be a dream
I wish I have never met you
Then there will be no need to impress you
No need for loving you
No need to want you
No need for crying over you
No need for tears and pain
No need for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing
Cause now you're gone 
and I have to stay high all the time 
to keep you off my mind
Spend my days locked in the haze
Trying to forget you babe
But fall back down I still gotta stay high all my life
 to forget I'm missing you.